Realizations

I'm coming to have understanding and realizations about my life. I really feel like I'm becoming who I want to be. My whole life it seams I've been a victim. I'm tired of being a victim. From the time I was born I was a sufferer of a muscle disease, a child of an abusave father, later again abused by my mother and stepfather. With each miscarriage I lost a piece of my soul, falling deeper and deeper into depression. I didn't want to live, and honestly felt I had nothing to live for. Here I was finally broken. I hit my rock bottom. I was completely reliant on my husband for everything. Cooking, cleaning, driving, he even had to help me get dressed. I was pitiful. But not any more. I don't want to be that helpless person. I want to be independent. I want to be able to do things for myself and to repay all the love my hubby gave me. 

I've been working really hard. After falling again a little over a month ago, I'm doing small things here at home. I dislocated my knee again, as well as breaking 3 toes, and spraining my ankle and wrist. It's been small things but they are having such a big impact. I'm really starting to see a change in my legs and strength. I must keep going. I cannot stop. My babies calling my name and I can hear them.